Diagnosis

During the last 8 years I have had many different drs giving me many different diagnosies.
First it was postnatal depression with psychotic features, then schizaphrenia, then bipolar, then schizoaffective disorder, then borderline personality.

I believe I have bipolar with psychosis. Sometimes I can cycle many times a day. This is called ulradian cycling. I get depressed a lot. I dont have as many mania symptoms as I have depressive. I do have moments where I talk really fast and have a lot to talk about. I get very irritable and angry sometimes. I also have moments when I get really restless and fidgetty. Where I cant sit still, and I have to keep moving, this is hard because you cant do anything to make you feel better. You have to distract yourself untill it passes.

I had times I was so depressed I would cut my arms. And take overdoses of prescription medication. I cannot count the amount of times I have done this. I got to a stage that I was addicted to the antipsychotic seroquel. I was really depressed and could not handle the emotional pain. Having excess amounts of this medication made me sleepy, and I would get really bombed out and retreat to bed for hours. I now do not take excess amounts of it, because I know it really isnt good at all. There were a few times where I almost died from these overdoses.