I have Bipolar.

I am a 36 year old woman from Australia. I have had Bipolar for 8 years. I have been on so many types of medications and none of them have worked.

In the last 8 years I have been hospitalized over 30 times. Mental health wards are not nice places to be. They are confining and the longer you are there the more depressed you get.

I believe anti-psyhcotic medication  and anti-depressants do not work for everyone. I was on three anti-psyhcotics, and a large dose of anti-depressant, and they still didnt work.

I have taken myself off a lot of my meds, I am now only on 300mg seroquel at night, which I need for sleep.

The new dr I see has told me as I get older I will grow out of bipolar. In the last two weeks since going off a lot of my meds I have been stable the whole time. I believe these medications make you feel sluggish, fatigued, and numb. You end up empty with no emotions, and very irritable.

Some of these medications I believe can really make you feel worse. They can cause suicidal thinking. After having the seroquel it makes me see shadows at night floating across the room. These meds were causing depressive and suicidal thoughts all day long. Now that I am not on very much I no longer have these depressive episodes.

I am better cause I have more energy.